Good news: I'm still alive.

Well, it's good news only if you're not one of the people who wants to kill me for basically disappearing off the face of the Earth.

My life is kind of in a limbo right now, as it's been for the past year and a half, and it's generally not a great place to be. So I've been withdrawing from people for a long time now, because human interaction with those who've known me when I still semi-had my shit together tends to remind me of everything that I'm NOT doing with my life right now. It's too painful. I hope you'll forgive me.

It took a lot for me to admit that, even to myself. And somehow saying it here is easier than over the phone, in email, or IM. Yes, I'm mostly okay. And no, I'm not ready to talk about it.


Now, in recent news, I'm being forced to learn to drive against my will, as the idea of driving makes me very very anxious. On the other hand, I fully admit that I need to know how to drive, and would like to not be dependent on others to get me where I need to go.

Also in recent news, I've met the most wonderful guy. (Our monthiversary was the 9th. ^__^ ) His worst quality? He's turning me into a big pile of mushy mush. Oh, and since we met online and he lives three thousand miles away? We've never met in person. Although I'm trying not to hold his location against him as a major character flaw.

To end a post here on a good note for a change.... I'd just like to say that I can't remember the last time I was with someone who felt lucky to be with me, every day. And who told me as much, every day. It's humbling, and endearing, and flattering, (and inaccurate :P ) and so utterly eye-opening.

This is what a relationship should be.
I'm a lucky girl.